Wednesday 21 May 2014

b u l l i e s

i've spent a lot of today

c r y i n g

over 

who i am

and who they are

and why they don't

like

me.

is it me?

am i really that bad?

r e a l l y?

just because 

of those four little words 

that k i l l me.

i

don't

like 

you.

i shouldn't care

i shouldn't

i wouldn't

if only my hands would stop

s h a k i n g

and my heart would stop

b e a t i n g

i'd be ok.

they shouldn't hurt me this much

really

it's just four little words

but they do

i feel as if

an anchor

so sharp

has hooked me off of the safe shore

and is dragging me

into 

d r o w n i n g.

and i am drowning

in tears

some clear as crystals

some red

not all from my eyes

i guess, bullies, you win.

if you keep this up

i really will

d r o w n

and 

who 

wins

then?

not me.

so please, if you have

w o r d s

to say

say nice ones

give a day of smiling

not a week of

despair

because you have power

you can move mountains

but so can others

and if we all pick on the same volcano, pretty soon 

it will all 

e

x

p

l

o

d

e

...

Sunday 18 May 2014

p e r f e c t i o n

imagine a world where everything is perfect.

imagine a world where everyone was valued for the beautiful people they are

where nobody would be judged 

by their weight

or their height

or the color of their hair

or the way they

l  a  u  g  h.

imagine that world for a moment. imagine it with all your might.

are you imagining it?

good.

now, take a deep breath, and delete it.

delete it.

d  e  l  e  t  e    i  t.

delete that world, because, let's be honest, it's not

r  e  a  l.

not yet.

maybe one day, with a little love, it can be.

but not today.

i want you all to know that even though this world isn't perfect

it can be.

i mean, we already have a full cast of beautiful people

lovely people

perfect people.

but there's also a lot of distress

hate

depression

sorrow 

grief.

a lot of which gets taken out on the innocent

which is just so

s  a  d.

because nobody deserves to feel unwanted.

nobody.

nobody.

n  o b  o  d  y.

this is a blog for those who do feel unwanted.

those who do suffer on a daily basis.

from bullies

from depression

from hate

from self-harm

a  n  y  t  h  i  n  g.

because you're still beautiful

even if you are a little

b  r  o  k  e  n.

this is a blog for those people who just need a smile

just a smile

just a little reminder that they don't need to change who they are for anybody

because you're already amazing.

you're already good enough.

in fact, you're beyond good enough.

you wanna know what you are?

ok.

i'll tell you.

you are...

p  e  r  f  e c  t  i  o  n.